My dearest friends I am writing this morning with a bit of a sadness but not lost hope. I was watching a program on television last night that left me with such sadness. In a way a good sadness as I just saw the state of our humanity. How God is so good and righteous and we are but not.
They were talking about how many views their videos got on instagram or something and the one that got the most views and likes was the winner and it was as if there was this weird greed in their eyes. It was almost scary and then I remembered this thing that I heard on internet radio that said studies have now been made to show that people’s brain (now this ‘people’ is a bit vague so hopefully it is not everyone) releases the same hormone when you see ‘likes’ as if you won a big prize, you are in love or got free money…my heart just sank.

Now for those of you who don’t know my history when it comes to blogs and social media just a bit background and unfortunately I have to use numbers and names just to illustrate how we are all so fragile and easily soaked up … I started my blog in 2008 in a real way to share my daily thoughts and I spent daily time with the Lord in that stage of my life and just wrote on my blog whenever I thought I got something that was just great to share with people… I never wanted to write if it didn’t come from the heart and sometimes it left me quiet for weeks. My readers (which I don’t think it is anymore) were hundreds of thousands but my intention was never to do it for readers, my inspiration came from the emails over the world that said they felt down and it help. I couldn’t believe that all types of religions and Christians could even relate to me… a pretty feeble person (hopefully a bit more mature than then)…but still that drove me. My sponsors came from all around the world and my Lookbook did so well with thousands of followers (back then 100 was a lot) that I got brand names all over the world but I had always been very particular as to what content I put on my blog as I did not want to be a ‘sell out’ and that money would not ever influence my blog even if i had only one reader. But obviously it does I got attention from magazines like Vogue and brands that I never thought... I started enjoying to name drop in conversations, (it was a bit weird back then for a South African girl to get those stupid names in your resume)… told myself ‘no man just be proud of yourself’ CRAP man the only thing we should be proud of is the fact that we have Christ in our live… that’s it… sorry to offend but that’s the only thing.. The result was, as time passed I just felt the emptiness in my writings that it became so weak so I just stopped.

The point that I want to make is that these days everyone is a hero in their own right. Society has said to us it’s ok to admire yourself and love yourself. I am not saying taking a beautiful or for that matter quirky photo is wrong but check the intention… I am preaching to myself here. If you have greed in ‘likes’ …once again check your intention.

Now back to my first story of the television program I just saw that we are all the same. We all get irritated with those narcissistic Facebook or instagram photos but go back for more. We feed our eyes on ‘perfect’ lives, friends those are just photos it is not perfect and even as a Christian, life is not perfect struggles come and bad things happen but it is not to kill us, it is environments that the Lord allows to shape his precious stones…US… we cant be shaped without struggle. Perfect lives can’t exist because it is not good for us. God gives us his Grace in those times to choose to turn to Him instead of ourselves and our ability and capability.
Anyway for me my eyes just opened, I recently decided to spend more time with God and to flee from evil (which I must remember every day because every day is a new challenge and that fact needs to go on for the rest of our lives). Practically speaking I starting talking to God, reading his word and listening to positive music and I must say so far it has helped so much. It reminds me of that Hymn that says:

 ‘Turn your eyes upon Jesus,Look full in His wonderful face,And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,In the light of His glory and grace,
We need Him so much more in this generation because we are losing Him… DAILY PERSONAL TIME

Much Love


Light, space, zestthat’s GodSo, with him on my side I’m fearless,
afraid of no one and nothing.When vandal hordes ride down
ready to eat me alive, Those bullies and toughs fall flat on their faces.
When besieged, I’m calm as a baby.
When all hell breaks loose,I’m collected and cool. I’m asking God for one thing,
only one thing: To live with him in his house my whole life long. I’ll contemplate his       beauty; I’ll study at his feet. That’s the only quiet, secure place in a noisy world,
The perfect getaway, far from the buzz of traffic. God holds me head and shoulders
above all who try to pull me down...


Yesterday I saw a program on TV about a boy having a severe skin disorder where his immune system is infected and it does not produce the right cells to protect his skin from getting hurt , the outcome is that just by the slightest bump his skin bursts and bruises immensely. His whole life he had to walk with bandages in order to protect his skin. The doctors realized that they could heal him once he went through a bone-marrow transplant; his only donor was his six month old baby brother. The bone-marrow transplant would help his body to reproduce effective cells that could heal him. But in order for his body to not reject the new bone-marrow he had to go through a cycle of chemotherapy, to basically kill his body so that it had no resources for healing and that it had to fully rely on the new bone-marrow. The poor child looked like a corpse after all the chemo and once he was basically ‘dead’ the transplant took place and with it amazing healing. After a few months he was 80% stronger and the disease took an enormous decrease.
It reminded me of us. We are in our human flesh full of sin and infected with an illness that causes sin to prevail. It is so bad that our inward blisters are visible in our behavior. Then we found a bone-marrow donor… in order for us to be saved there was only ONE donor to match ours. He had to be perfect without any defect or sin. The Father knew who He was but it broke His heart to know that His Son was the only match for our disease, and needed to die, but God loved us in our fallen state so much it was a worthy sacrifice. He saw us in our dead state and knew that he had the cells to heal us… and the transplant was successful once His blood cell, the Spirit came into our bruised and infected heart.. But He also wants us to be dead in our flesh in order for His Bone-marrow to be effective. He wants us to turn from our self-effort and be deaden in manner so that His better cells can heal our disease… in a daily manner…in our daily walk, to turn from our self and know that we have a new Cell producing effective life..

Eph 6:10 be empowered in the Lord in the might of His strength


I had been nonchalantly doing my GHD justice by using his man made talent for what it is supposed to do and taming my bed head hair, when suddenly out of the blue disaster struck… now disasters in all it sense has very different meanings for different people around the world… but my disaster was so superficial that I don’t even want to voice it… maybe voice is not the right word when you are writing but you get the point, long story a little shorter the dreaded word ‘Loadshedding’ came to pass… now the meaning of loadshedding is: electricity biting you in the butt and forcing you to make DIY METHODS in all manners your best friend because electricity is a luxury that does not exist for a few hours. Needless to say all was well in the end but my story has a point.
As I was sitting there I was actually hoping we had installed the generator that has been standing in our garage for a few months. It brought me to the point where I realized that God is just so sweet. He installed His generator into us when His Holy Spirit came so merciful into our spirit and is mingling in our soul and eventually influencing our physical decisions. If I was to know that my creations were to be so stubborn and falling into sin the whole time and breaking my heart continuously, I would send them one big loadshedding mass to destroy their stalwart hearts, but my beautiful loving creator steeps down and loves us with an unmerited and undeserving love that acts as our generator when our strength is gone. In fact, as my husband and I was doing Bible study this morning it just stood out for me that the Lord does not merely desire to be your generator, He wants to be your whole electricity system and loves it when we just come to a point where we can say: ‘my merciful Father I am not able to overcome this…  but work your power through me.. it is all that I have’, I think that makes Him smile.
Philippians 4:13 Says : I am able to do all things in Him who empowers me. But you guys.. and girls … here is a big BUTT (without the extra ‘t’) … the word ‘empowers’ in Greek means MAKE DYNAMIC INWARDLY… isn’t that just the coolest thing ever . Christ dwells in us (our superlative generator on steroids). He empowers us, makes us dynamic from within .By such inward empowering we are able to do all things in Christ…

What a sigh of relieve because I am afraid my electricity system is really in need of my sweetest Lord

Adios amigos have a great week


Mother Mary cried as she held heaven in her arms
For the shadow of the scar she saw was clear
As her own bewildered baby lay weeping for the world
Whose frightened tears would free us all from fear
The marks of death that God chose never to erase
The wounds of loves eternal war
When the kingdom comes with its perfected sons
He will be known by the scars
For a time He sought to tell the world He was the Way
That God the father had a human heart
With His own holy hands He sought
To touch and heal their scars
But they chose to tear those gentle hands apart
No one was there to wipe away the tears
That burned the holy eyes of God
As He looked upon His one and only Son
Who'd never sinned or lied, yet was crucified
The marks of death that God chose never to erase
The wounds of loves eternal war
When the kingdom comes with its perfected sons
He will be known by the scars
After they had slain Him and laid Him in the grave
And the ones He loved had fled into the dark
Then His love and power raised Him
God won the victory
But they only recognized Him by the scars
The marks of death that God chose never to erase
The wounds of loves eternal war
When the kingdom comes with its perfected sons
He will be known by the scars



Scripture says that we should renew our mind and then also that the battle is in the mind. So our mind is pretty influential. In fact the mind is the cause for depression and if we can learn to control this thing that is called ‘the mind’ we might get victory over many areas in our life. It is also said "As a man thinketh in his heart so is he”

But how do we get to that point that we can link our mind to our will, in order to choose to think about things that are true, honest, things that are just, pure, lovely of good report and inspirational (phil 4:8).We have to fill our mind with these things first of all. If you think of the world today it is filled with negativity bombarding our thoughts constantly. It is a choice to rid yourself of the pessimism that overtakes the world and choose to look at things that have life. 

When we choose to read, look at and listen to things that are in the positive realm, we train our brain to more easily be attracted to things lovely as Philippians 4:8 says.  Even when we talk to people how often is the conversation just linked to all things negative and breaking down. I want to be a person who builds up …I know I still have a far way to go… but I guess I am in training…

Adios amigos have an awesome week